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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

3:19PM - life...in general

so i haven't updated in a while, so i thought i would get on this. in t minus 46 days, ill be graduating from college. thats really weird, especially considering that im not going to grad school, im not going to be living in some new city, i dont have a job lined up. in fact, this whole experience isnt just weird, its really scary when i really think about it. my life isnt exactly going as i planned...mainly since i dont really have a plan. remember when u were a little kid, and you had all these big goals and dreams of what your life was going to be like? i do...i wanted to be a palentologist, open up a stable with my cousin, work with animals...and slowly but surely all those dreams just ended...i dont really know why. whats really funny is the fact that i had a passion for something when i was younger, like i actually felt like i could do something with my life, that i could be somebody that really did something...that made a difference somehow. now i wish i had a drive, i wish that i actually had something that i wanted to do or be. i say that i want to be an admissions counselor, but the more and more i think about it, the more i feel like i just want to do that because i know that job. its something that is familiar to me. i dont really have a sincere passion about education, even though my whole capstone paper is focusing on how to get people actually going to college. i really just fell into this whole field, its not something that i would actually really want to be. i remember one of my friends talking about how she wants to change the world, and how college made her see all these things that she can do and it really inspired her. i want to be inspired..i really have not been inspired for a really long time. theres nothing thats really calling out to me thats saying "hey julie, u should do this!! u would be good at this, u would like this!", not that im really expecting a career to do that, since careers tend to not speak, but i just wish that i had a goal. my goals right now are to a. get a job after graduation, and b. move out of my house. those r 2 pretty basic goals, but at the same time, they r pretty hefty ones.

lets talk about a. getting a job. the whole issue with this is that im panicking as to what i need to do/ can do with my life. its surreal just saying that in general, but i need to face the facts-im graduating college and i need to get my shit together. i feel like my resume is loaded with admissions crap, so i would be a good candidate in that area to get a job. but is that really what i want to do? lets think about this..im most likely going to be getting a job at a private school. with that, im going to be making next to nothing, which doesnt help me pay my loans back, nor does it help me move out of my house, but onto that later. also working in admissions in general doesnt get you much money regardless of what school i am at. another reason i may not be good with this is that i really do not enjoy planes. my recruitment area could be huge, like lets say the whole southwest of the country...thats a lot of flying right there, besides the fact that i would have to totally relocate completely on my own. i would have nothing essentially, except me, myself and i. and i know how exciting that sounds, but its not really striking my whole "woohoo" chord right now. besides the fact that i go stir-crazy extremely quickly if i do not have something to do or someone to talk to, so being on my own completely does not sound like too much fun.

and how about b. moving out of the house. me and kik have already seriously discussed moving in together post-graduation. and i seriously cannot wait for that. it will be so nice to be living with one of my friends. the only downside is when this is going to happen. i wish it could happen the next day after graduation <may 12th for those who dont know>, but theres no way that this will happen because i have no money, and i need to get a job. so that just brings this whole thing to a complete circle, cuz of the whole not knowing what i want to do with my life.

i just want to do something with myself. i dont want to be stuck in a rut at 21 or 22 years old. i wish i felt like i could change the world or really be something or even do something great with my life, but ive already gotten so pessimistic that i seriously doubt that i really can make a difference, or that i will even be motivated to do that. i can actually see myself in an office, sitting in my little cubicle, peering over the top and talking to this really boring middle aged cubicle-neighbor, asking if he wants to get lunch or who those kids are that he's got pictures of. when he gives me a look of utter disdain, ill pop my head down, and go back to work quite sad. who knows what ill even be doing in that cubicle...even playing internet games will bore me to tears after the first hour.

graduation is coming wayyy too fast. if life could be like super mario bros <or any video game for that matter>, where when u get nervous and dont know what to do, and then ur fingers get all shaky and u fall off a cliff, its okay cuz u can press reset and have another life.  but life isnt like that, sadly, so ive just got to deal. oh well..life is gonna keep on bringin it, and im just gonna have to keep on takin it, as much as i dont want to...

Current mood: gloomy
Current music: death cab for cutie

Thursday, January 5, 2006

1:07AM

Today was another interesting day in the life of me. First I played some frisbee

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Today was another interesting day in the life of me. First I played some frisbee <HARDCORE!!> with some of the gangsta chicas <ie laura, mujer, and joycee> and then since it was cold in the park we went back to lauras for some hot chocolate. mmmmmmmmmmm. yummy. :) Then we headed over to mujer's place, without laura cuz shes a booger, and for some unknown reason i really wanted to do a puzzle, so we found one in her basement of these kayaks and yeah....that was really hard. its still lying on her living room floor...but it will be conquered tomorrow believe u me!! lol....i heart that phrase sucka! so yeah, then mommy white made us dinner which consisted of pasta goodness and meatloaf.
then onto the BIG disappointment of the day. I had heard that LOST was supposed to have a new episode this week...I've gone 5 weeks without a fix, and man its not looking too good for me!! anyway, so i thought it was gonna be on, so i picked up yellna from her house and i call my bro to see if he is gonna be using the TV in my house. good news-he wasnt. bad news-the damn rosebowl is on!!! i hate abc until next week when they finally air a new episode. i was sooooooooooooooooo angry!!! all i wanted was to see sawyer in all his glory, but nooooooooooooooo....they have to snatch him away like when a little girl stole our frisbee this spring and ended up throwing it into her friends face and making her nose bleed!! <long story, feel free to inquire>
so then yellna and i, to cheer ourselves up, went to johnny and hanges for some hot dawgs, at which point the guido behind the counter was blatantly checking us out. im sorry, but if ur gonna make it that obvious, u should just say, "hello. can i sleep with u hott stuff?" at which point i would reply, "um, no." but the hot dawg was very good i must say.
thats pretty much it for the update, however, i do have 3 quotes from the evening with yellna that i do feel compelled to share:
"Ho I must unsheath my porksword!"
"You have to combine a meat with a fallic object. Beefstick. Chickenstaff. Thats the formula!"
"Hahaha. Vealshaft."

Current mood: giggly
Current music: Paul Anka's version of Wonderwall and Smells Like Teen Spiri

Monday, January 2, 2006

3:12PM - holiday/life/semester updates!!

ahoy there all u 2 people who actually read this journal! i decided that i would update this mofo just in case if u actually still checked this

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ahoy there all u 2 people who actually read this journal! i decided that i would update this mofo just in case if u actually still checked this <i know im a horrible person for NEVER updating this thing lol...but u love me anyway so ha! :p > so lets see theres a toooooooon of shizz to be updating about....i guess ill begin with the horror known as JUNIOR YEAR.

Junior Year
The story goes a little something like this. the semester started off pretty good, i enjoyed my classes, the new job working at Roadrunner was great, I was doing a ton of work as Senior Ambassador for the Admissions office, my friends were fantabulus, Bon Jovi released a new CD "Have a Nice Day" <which is amazing suckaz!!> so all things were pretty much good. Then it happened. Roadrunnergate. Thats right....we had a criminal investigation at Roadrunner. I havent felt too comfortable in writing about this online, just because, you know, that damn Patriot Act could come back and bite me in the ass, but you know what, I am innocent and did not do a damn thing, so what now Mahwah PD?!?!? The basic jist of what happened goes a little something like this. At my job we sell a bunch of things and so we make money in cash. Money was stolen from us <a LOT of money> and so all of the employees were under investigation. We were interrogated by the cops, had our Miranda rights read to us, you know the deal if you watch any crime shows. All of us were freaking out at the time, and whenever the phone would ring, we imagined it to be the detective coming to get us. We have since calmed down but i must say it was a very nervewracking time. They even wanted to polygraph us. Right after my interrogation i freaked out cuz i had to go straight back to work, which is in a little glass box, with everyone coming up to me to ask if i was okay. I think i got a little claustrophobic and just had a nervous breakdown right there at work. Needless to say, they closed the office for a bit and i didnt go to my class right after work that day. This happened at the end of September, early October, so I have definitely calmed down since then, but it was really a crazy time. If you want more details, feel free to ask next time you see me-I've got nothing to hide.

LOST!!!
This semester i also began to have with my suitemate Carolyn what we call JKLN <Julie and Kik Love Nights>. What this means is that every Wednesday night when I would come back from the gym we would watch Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune <to see who Sayjak would hit on....its really easy to do, just see whichever woman has her boobs hanging out the most or is really perky and young, and there u go> then from 8-9 we would order Chinese <i know i just came back from the gym but hey, im hungry!> and then at 9 LOST is on!! For anyone who doesnt watch this show, i feel so bad for u cuz u r definitely missing out on a SPECTACULAR show!! I am in love with Sawyer-hes so badass!! Plus the storylines and just everything about this show is amazing. Although i only have one gripe with the show and that is that they have Michelle Rodriguez on it. She wasnt a member of the original cast, and i would def not stop watchin the show cuz of her, but i just dont like her. Shes too much of a bitch for me to handle and she is wayyyyyyyyyyy too full of herself. I just dont like her whatsoever...but i love Sawyer and thats all that matters.

BON JOVI CONCERT!!!! :D :D :D
So i mentioned earlier in here that Bon Jovi had a new CD come out this year and that it was amazing and good and all things glorious, but I also saw him in concert on December 21st. He was AMAZING!!! I went with Jordan and Josh and they seemed to have a good time too, but I was going nuts <of course!!> Bon Jovi was just sooooo great, I cant wait for him to come to Giants Stadium and I will have tickets for it. I cant say anything about the concert cuz words just cant say how wonderful it was. It was so incredible...and he put me in the Christmas spirit when he sang a song he wrote years ago called "I Wish Everyday Could Be Like Christmas". And he wore a santa hat. And he was so pretty. Did I mention that he was pretty? And hot? Well now i did, in case if u missed it.

Christmas!
I finally got me my digital camera so now i can document my life and not steal any more of Cara's pictures <love love love to my Cara!!> and i must say i've been going trigger happy with it. I've taken videos and all sorts of fun pix with it. On Christmas eve we went to my Grandma and Pops, and they had good food mmmmmmmm and we began doing our annual tradition of watching a christmas story, with half the family stoked that its on tv and the other half asking God why this movie was ever created. I myself am among those who are in love with this movie, so i was indeed stoked. After Christmas morning, I drove out to my Granddad's cuz my cousins from West Virginia were there, one of whom was leaving at 3 to go back home for working purposes. Once I got there, Sarah bestowed upon me some Charlotte Russe <i think thats how u spell it> perfume, a stuffed elephant that is one of those really soft beanie pillowish kind of things and then she gave me this bizangin black leather jacket. Its Banana Republic and its too big for her and she took off the tag and lost the receipt so she couldnt bring it back so she gave it to me. I'm slightly too big for it, so once i lose a little weight, ill be good to go and fun times will be had by all. Sweet. I also got a chance to chillax with Alan and Tommy, two more of my cousins, and all ive got to say is that it was a very very interesting time. lolol. We went out to my Aunt Jan's for brunch a day or two after Christmas and that was a memorable experience i must say.
I also got a chance to see my 3 other cousins from the other side of my family which was really great cuz i havent seen them in a really really long time. Christine, Carolyn and Thomas were all doing good and omg they r sooo big now! i mean, i remember thomas being so little and now hes a frosh in high school. i feel old. but it was really good to see them again and know that they r doing well.

New Years!!
For the past few years, I've spent new years with some of the nicest people that i know, and that ive known for a long time. But so many things were up in the air this year and i didnt know what was going on until i had already made plans with my other friends for new years, which made me sad, but i love all my friends so i had a great time anyway! i went to laura kaplans where we made a big dinner, did our secret santa, made appletikis <i named it myself>, and actually broke out into a spontaneous dance party. it was sooo much fun if i do say so myself and i have much funny video and pictures of the night. good times good times.

Alright this entry is disgustingly long, so im stopping cuz my hair is wet and i really gotta dry it before i get the avian flu...or avienza...which is the same thing but whatev! If u actually read this, please leave some form of comment so i know if anyone actually does read this lol
until next time, good day and god speed suckaz!!

Current mood: content
Current music: "Have a Nice Day" by Bon Jovi

Friday, October 7, 2005

11:26AM - Teenage Mutant Skanky Turtles meets Saved by the Bell

so last night turned into A NIGHT OF THE CRAZEEEEES!!!! we were merely chillin in our apartment, carolyn, cara, and myself, when carolyn and i decided to go a little buck-wild, if you will. as we were watching dodgeball

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so last night turned into A NIGHT OF THE CRAZEEEEES!!!! we were merely chillin in our apartment, carolyn, cara, and myself, when carolyn and i decided to go a little buck-wild, if you will. as we were watching dodgeball <all good things come from dodge, dip, duck, dive and dodge> we got a brilliant idea. we thought about how entertaining it would be to put a random male, or males, photos on our bathroom wall, so that way when u got out of the shower, there would be total randomness everywhere!! so first we couldnt figure out who to put up on the wall...our first thought was david hasselhoff, cuz come on, nothing says amazing washed-up hottness more than him....but then we were like, well he was just on in dodgeball, so thats definitely not random enough. i then thought of patrick swayze, but thats too typical. we needed something that would scream out, "OMG THIS IS SO RANDOM IDK WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!!! HE IS LOOKING AT ME AS I'M GETTING OUT OF THE SHOWER!!!" and then....it happened....we came up with not one, but 3 amazingly random males to put on our bathroom wall!!!! and the lucky guys are......THE SAVED BY THE BELL BOYS!!! ZACK MORRIS, A.C. SLATER AND SCREECH!!!! so once we figured out who were going to be on our wall, we needed to find the right pictures...<keep in mind cara has no idea this is going on btw>...so we try to find the perfect pics online, which we do. we really wanted to put the pix in a big red heart, u know, to feel the bayside love, but alas, we have no construction paper. tears everywhere lots of pings!! anyhoo, carolyn came up with a fabulous fab fab idea!! instead of putting up the pix in a heart, we should just make a funny comment along with the pix to put up on the wall. so she came up with "we're lookin' at YOU hotstuff!!" rofl rofl rofl!!! so i cut that out in a heartshape, cuz we all know that those boys r def lovin this, and we taped it on our bathroom wall.

cara still has no idea that any of this happened, even tho she was in the apt with us...me and carolyn were in our respective rooms, while cara was in the living room doing some work...seriously, me and kik <carolyn> r gonna be in the cia or the fbi someday with our covertness!! so we waited and waited for cara to have to go into the bathroom, and man, the payoff was AMAZING!!! she screams out, "WHAT THE HELL??" which led to amount of hysterical laughter/photo ops...now that was a hott night!!

yay for turtle power!!!
~julie

Current mood: giggly
Current music: teenage mutant ninja turtles theme

Thursday, October 6, 2005

5:21PM - My first entry = hottness

well, i finally did it, i got a livejournal. people have been telling me to update my xanga, but then i have other ppl that r just like, yo woman, just get a lj. so i opted for the lj, cuz yes, i caved to peer pressure...so its here and u r now in the oreo queen's kingdom!!

not too much enthralling has gone down today, i woke up, went to my first class where the prof joked that we were going to have our midterm today, and then he let out this obsene laugh...like seriously obsene. it was xxx rated, so chitlins, shield your eyes. it reminded me of a barbaric yawp , but hes not a barbarian, he's an academic, so i wasnt all that intimidated. once that class was over, i headed to my pre med club meeting. now you might be asking yourself, "hold up son! what dat biotch be talkin bout? she aint no bio kid!!" well, dont be that psyched out kids, i have not made major life altering plans. i merely stumbled into the meeting two weeks ago, and there was free food. PLUS i am in full support of all those crazy mofos who want to be doctors or involved in medicine in some way, cuz hey, i like the whole living thing...its been good to me. so thats why im there. i still have not a clue as to what im gonna be once i graduate from this school, but hey, i can always be like the guy i saw on millionaire last night who upon graduation from American University became a babysitter and a waiter....or not really, damn i really gotta get on the whole "i need a life goal" thing...hmmm....thats for another day!

so after those two things, i went to my other class....it was pretty good..not much to report, other than i did pretty well on our first paper, and yes, although im happy about that, it only counts for like, 7.5% of our total grade, so it doesnt really matter too much so hmmm boogerishness...and in an hour, my last class-o-the-day starts, history of jazz. now mind u this is an insanely easy class, but im le tired, and the whole passing out thing while he plays jazz music isnt too difficult...

alright, i must go wake myself up before i run to class...should be entertaining!!

~julie

Current mood: ditzy
Current music: send me on my way ~rusted root

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